Just dont know....

I am really stuck in my decisions. I was supposed to have my tubes removed (Dr said that it was safer for me than just tying my tubes) Feb 15, 2022 from an ectopic when my IUD perforated, but decided against it. I am high risk for multiple complications if pregnant. I would LOVE to have another baby and my bf is my soul mate, which would our first together, but I am scared. I had bad left shoulder pain (like gas pain) and right hip pain over the weekend. As I am looking up info on my phone, that all pops up as symptoms of ectopic. I am VERY sensitive to hormones, so being on BC is difficult. I keep going back and forth with wanting to just get my tubes removed so I won't lose anymore. I get symptoms faster than most which is why I know that I have had so many losses. I just want to have a positive pregnancy experience and life with someone. I finally find someone that isn't abusive and is a dad to my two boys. I am so torn....