How do you guys stay strong?

I am 8dpo and feeling “periody” in the tummy, and i have a sinking feeling. This is month eight after my daughter happened straight away and shenis almost three. I wanted another before she was 3 :(

I know eight months isnt the eternity that others go through. But this is starting to break me and I just want to see two lines, but it feels like we’re just getting closer and closer to medical appointments and my heart is aching.