Trying trying ready to give up

ESH

I'm almost 35 and ive been trying for over 10 years. 5 with my first fiance. Then 8 years with my current husband. Don't get me wrong im glad my ex couldn't have kids. But both of us have gotten checked and no issues diagnosed with me or my husband. My bestie from infant-hood just got pregnant. Growing up we always thought it was her who couldnt have kids. I was going to have 5.