I’ve always had trouble leaving my physically and mentally abusive, cheating ass bf/bd. The attachment I’ve had to him is just insane. I’ve always thought that when I know I’m ready to leave, I’ll text a guy back in my dm’s cause if he sees it he won’t take me back. He’s always said if I cheated he will leave.

4 years later, I finally did it. Today he was abusive. I broke up with him. Texted a msg back to a guy on IG knowing he’d see it on the iPad. And now he’s gone. Idk how to feel. I’m happy but I’m sad. I’m relieved but I’m hurt so bad. Idk. Idk. It’s what I wanted. It just hurts.