I’ve been so distant from God and my heart breaks. I’ve run away into the woods. I’ve been s*icical. I’ve been drinking and smoking. I’ve genuinely felt no will to live. I’ve been hurting the people I love. I keep on rejecting opportunities to know Him. I’ve run away from help. Lord I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am praying for a miracle. I am 11DPO. Lord please heal me and help me have a healthy successful pregnancy. Lord please work miracles and turn this test positive. I will spend tonight in prayer. Please pray with me. I have been so lost and I know god is working for my God despite my behavior. Please pray with me. I’m Jesus name Amen