Should I? *important read below

My first and only son was conceived by r*pe wile I was in college. No man I’ve met is okay with that fact, even if they’re okay with the fact I have a kid. Dating is impossible because of this. Guys just get awkward and uncomfortable and end up ghosting me once they learn about it. What sucks is I always wanted a big family. I at least wanted one more kid and a chance to have a girl but time is not on my side. At this point, would it be weird to look into a sperm donor?