Warning- rant!!

have 3 months until I return to work and I’m feeling absolutely sick with anxiety. I know I’m fortunate to have this time and women everyday go back to work but how do you do it?

I never ever want to leave my baby but I’m going to have to go back full time because we need the money. The thought of my son being with my in-laws for a couple of days and my mum is so difficult for me. I’m scared I’ll go to pick him up and he won’t want to come with me. I truly can’t imagine being separate from him please tell me it gets easier… what’s your experiences??