Is anyone else who was a victim of a forced sexual assault struggle with feelings of guilt and shame because they had orgasms during the assault. I can’t stop the panic and anxiety when the memory creeps up on me during the day. Hijacking my every day thoughts at work, in public, at home with my husband. Or worse when the recollection slams into my sleep waking me in a panic and cold sweat, shaking and sobbing. Overwhelmed with anxiety and panic. I feel like I can’t tell anyone either. If anyone has any advice or insight please reach out. I don’t know what to do or how to get past it.