This is the only place I some what feel comfortable texting my thoughts, feelings, questions, and problems... I know this is public and I can't stop people from being rude... But if your going to... Please don't... 🙏

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I have been damaged and scarred since I was 5 years old by men.... And been put down by my father my whole life.... I was always reminded that no man would ever love me for me... That they would just want sex from me. So every time I had a break up or a guy not wanting to be just my friend.... Always wanting more.... What my dad said that day... Would replay its self in my head... Over and over.... Then I started to realize, he was right..

And he would tell me I'm fat and ugly....

15 years later I am not so insecure like how I use to be. I didn't send pics out. It gave me anxiety and I felt so ugly..

Then a guy friend helped me not to be so insecure. So I started posted pics, like as my profile pics... I started to get attention and yeah it felt great. Being told I'm beautiful, pretty, cute, sexy, etc... But now it's getting overwhelming..... I feel stupid for complaining for not getting attention then complaining I'm getting too much and getting overwhelmed from it.