We decided to start TTC last week and started <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a>.

We were so excited.

But

After a month of horrible fatigue, hair loss, weight gain of 30lbs and memory problems I went to the doctor and they found 3 “highly suspicious” masses. This type of cancer is genetic so I already know that’s what it is.

Now my husband is leaving for the military the 18th.

My condition is just getting worse by the day at this point I’m miserable and doing this without him is terrifying.

Getting this TTC experience ripped away from us is heartbreaking and don’t even know how fertility will be after however many rounds of radiation.

Please just tell me it’s going to be okay. Because it really doesn’t feel like it right now.