Hi ladies,

I’m currently 21 weeks pregnant with a baby boy, my partner and I are both 23 yo. My partner and I have been going through a rough patch these past two weeks arguing every single day because he does things he knows I don’t and won’t approve of due to past infidelity (very early on in our relationship) for context I have a 3 yo who is not his bio child but treats her as she is his. My previous pregnancy with her father I was cheated on and abused in ever sort of way but all that ended when I was 6 months pregnant (I left him) Now with my new partner I am pregnant with his first my second child I’m 5 months pregnant and now issues feel like there arising and fast. he followed loads of girls he claimed he was close with in high school, liked a picture messaged some catching up with old friends and I don’t like it and he wouldn’t want me doing the same. He was recently caught talking to a women he claims was a close friend had the conversation on mute he deleted the message but the women liked the message that was the only thing I was able to see, he claimed it was him swiping up on a story saying she has a “big head” but still… sounds flirty.. and states the only reason it was muted was because if she would’ve texted when we were in public he knew I was going to flip out but then again I think “THEN WHY DO IT” I continue to have dreams of him cheating, he has a privacy screen on his phone and last night we argued again about the same thing he removed everyone when we first argued about it but I’m still bothered. He asked my why do I think he’s cheating when he’s always home talking & texting me and I said my intuition is telling me your doing something you know is wrong. Apparently that upset him and he changed his password to his phone. When I asked him to unlock it he said no what difference does it make if you already think I’m cheating. I got upset and left it’s two weeks now of constantly arguing about what I feel is the same thing, I’m getting real tired of him, he left today at 12:30am to go drink with his female cousins who before we got together were his wing women & the friends they have are promiscuous to say the least. He called me to check up now at 2am and say he’s staying the night, said I love you and I didn’t say it back. my head is all over the place. I’m stuck wondering is this anxiety or maybe insecurity that I feel or is it my intuition telling me something.. maybe pregnancy hormones.? I’m not sure but mentally im real REAL tired getting to the point I’m starting to feel a certain kind of hatred towards him. I don’t want it to be that way he tries to reassure me he did it once won’t do it again but you always hear once a cheater always a cheater. I’ve forgiven him for his past hiccup but now I feel like i could potentially be getting hit with the same stick.