Am I alone?

I think personally week 9 has been the hardest for me. take that with a grain of salt though because this is my first pregnancy but my hormones are so heightened My best friend of 4 years passed away his family wants nothing to do with me they think I'm trash because I got approved for housing so I have until October to find a place im stressed out overwhelmed and really emotional I suffer from anorexia before pregnancy I'm eatting alot for me like alot alot my Drs says I'm eating enough I'm just feeling everything this week stronger than normal the cramping stretching pulling I'm getting a tiny bump for someone who was 28 and 95 pounds before pregnancy but I am gaining weight but I feel like I'm alone growing an organ and a tiny little chicken nugget