I don’t know what to do 😩

Hahaha, I am so stressed. 🥲

Who waits 6.5 months (technically about 8, or even more specifically 6.5 months + half the pregnancy) to decide they want to “be a father and take responsibility” knowing they can’t even take responsibility and accountability for the reason they were staying away? Although, I did ask him to stay away due to everything and he agreed. He truly didn’t want this.

Also, people pressured him into making contact. He said they didn’t, but looks 🐟 he waited all this time and his reasoning was “to make you(me) happy because you thought it would be easier on the kids.” And he admitted he had people telling him to take me to court. I bet he was saying it was all me to get sympathy.

I asked about child support and he said “we don’t want to get the courts involved.” And that we can co parent the “fun way” such as vacations and zoos, and he will cover any costs and buy things we need. I said if we do that we might as well be in a relationship because I don’t know, I never see split parents doing that due to emotions and whatnot getting in the way. So, I’m guessing I may be giving him another chance? I’m definitely not moving in anytime soon and he’s not on the birth certificate.

We’ve been talking since Wednesday, but he hasn’t set a date or asked to see the baby yet. He finally asked yesterday about the baby and how we have been. And he drove an hour away to help someone unclog a drain (I’m assuming his mom) over the weekend. So, I find that super odd that he’s not trying to already see our child. I would have asked to already see him, but really, I wouldn’t let my my mortgage fall behind $4,000 and even risk any of what happened to begin with.

I’m just really frustrated and stressed right now. I want to do what’s right for the kids, what’s biblically right to do, and I’m not sure what that would be.

We have been doing fine on our own, and I agree my kids need a father, but they don’t need an inconsistent one. And I feel he’s already being inconsistent, and we have been doing great on our own. Until he popped back up.

*update: he just sent a message stating he was waiting on me to set the time to meet. 🤨 why do I have to do everything?