My fiancé thinks I'm "vanilla" and he's spicier than me. He loves me no different and still enjoys sex, but I disagree about being "vanilla" as I have all these thoughts in my head, but I struggle to express them. My last relationship was the first person I had sex with and they really stifled my wanting to explore and have fun (there were so many other wrong things with that past relationshp). How do I get back to exploring that side? I never really got to figure out what I liked. Suggestions other than "just do it" would be helpful, because I can't "just do it". Thanks in advance!