Husband refusing sexual contact

I just need help processing this and am curious if any of you guys have been through the same thing.

I’m 36 weeks pregnant with a c section date for a few weeks out. Sex has been extremely painful over the past couple months. The doc thinks it may have to do with previous c sections and the issues that have came with the surgery. Idk.

So anyways. I’ve had sex with my husband semi regularly anyways because I know he wants to be fulfilled by me. However it regularly ends up bad because I’m just in pain the whole time. I don’t get any pleasure. I told him this done the moment it started hurting and suggested maybe other sexual activity. Hand jobs, blow jobs ect, and he mentioned I was bad at it, and maybe I should look up tips and tricks for him.

I have but since the initial conversation he refuses anything that isn’t penetration. Which has been nothing but a shitty experience for me. I’m in pain during and crying alone in the shower after. He says he doesn’t enjoy it because it’s not good. But still refuses anything but penetration.

The topic came up again tonight as I was making dessert and he goes “so will I get some pussy on the side”? I asked if he meant penetration or if he was willing to do other things together. And of course all he wanted was penetration. I asked him why he was refusing anything else and he said because he was scared he wouldn’t be fulfilled.

That Kind of pissed me off honestly. I feel like he is only caring about himself. And then there is a part of me that is mind blown that he won’t accept a blow job from his wife.

I want to do this stuff guys, I’m eagerly asking to suck this man’s dick and I feel so stupid and rejected.

Is there another angle I can look at this from? Im just feeling frustrated.