I hate being married and I think I’m the problem!

Honestly, I don’t have anyone to tell this to but I’ve just been feeling for the last few years that I’d rather be alone! I’m 33, 34 soon and been married to my husband nearly 8 years. We don’t have any kids but do have a pet we share.

Honestly, I feel like I’m better off on my own. I’m bored AF with this marriage. We don’t go out or do anything (money isn’t an issue), he’s never planned a nice birthday or outing in the 10 years we’ve been together. I’ve planned several. Most things somehow manage to fall on me. He’s only just started pulling his weight around the house and even then, he’ll wait for me to ask/tell him to do things before they’re done. He’s cleaned the bathroom ONCE in all the ten years we’ve been together, I just find him boring and no longer attracted to him that much. His sex drive is also way way higher than mine which drives him to watch p*rn constantly but that’s a whole other issue. He’s not romantic in any way at all.

I’m not an angel either, I have mild depression and quite bad anxiety. I’m not very caring I guess because I’m tired of him moaning about how he doesn’t feel well anytime he needs to do something. But when I tell him to visit the doc, he’s miraculously feeling better so I stop sympathising with him. He’s extremely caring towards me though, when I’m ill and always tell me how beautiful I am every single day and he’s loyal too. Honestly these few reasons are why I’m still here. I also feel like we’ve built such a good life together that I don’t want to start my life again.

Not sure what to do but I honestly feel like I want to live my own life for a bit but in my culture, separation is as good as you saying you’re divorced. I dunno… I’m so unhappy!

Any advice of word of wisdom? Thank you!