I have a brother who is 2 years younger than me . Before school even started we already had each other we didn’t have to worry about not knowing anyone for recess bc we had each other . In middle school he was the person I could be myself around even thought you were expected to act a certain way by the time you started middle school .

At the beginning of my high school years and half way through my brothers middle school years, our parents started having screaming fights in front of me and my brothers . I’m the oldest of all three .

I remember a 14 year old girl holding the hand of her younger brothers crying w me in the middle holding them and trying to comfort them . While the brother that I now barely talk to was under the bed crying , covering his ears , screaming at me even though in my head I was just trying to help ,

Fast forward >>>>

The fights stop for a while and not that many years later these type of fights started happening much more frequently by the time I had already graduated and my brother had started high school .

My brother and I had an argument about something my dad told him about me and my mom : I felt enraged because my dad said something negative about me to my brother , and it was something I didn’t even know that bothered him so badly .

This argument was a long blaming game “ you are this so that’s why this “ I think that was thee day I said something that really , really hurt him because If I meant it I would remember what I said and I don’t , <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> since my brother completely started ignoring my existence . He would also be mean to my mom and I stood of for her multiple times by telling him not to talk to my mom like that and offending him . He was also aggressive towards our two younger brothers . To be fair I do remember us at some point fighting each other physically the times our parents left us alone . I was 15 but I don’t think I was ready to be left w the responsibility of taking care of 3 boys .

This is I love my brothers a lot and I hate that my relationship w my brother wasn’t hot it used to be when we were kids .

The way we are now 8 years later I messaged him and I told him he was important to me that our relationship is bad I see that I’m not blind it does affect me because you’re my brother I love you , I don’t know what I did I’m sorry .

All these years thinking I was clueless how we got there when I had known when it all started .