It’s been 6 years since he potentially cheated and

My husband was doing shady shit on dating sites I didn’t have a chance to log in only seen emails

Condoms going missing faster than what we were having sex throughout the years like I’d buy a box of 10 say Sept 1 we have sex Sept 5 on sept 14 we are out HOW?? This was a constant pattern for years never made sense as he claims he has ED

even finding an empty wrapper in the car

Contact Jen girl was in his phone now it’s GONE

To catching a woman sneaking up on our porch when I saw her I watched her she didn’t knock she was so quiet almost like she knew if she made noise the dog would bark she pulled out her phone got on it and waited she heard me come up behind her and took off when I walked inside he was screaming at the kids I told him about the woman….he went outside looked up and down the street and said what woman YOU ARE CRAZY!!! There’s no one here!!!!!!

But he swears he was never cheating he isn’t a cheater for he has a conscience and he isn’t that kind of person and he could never cheat etc etc etc.

claimed to join the sites to boost his image

The wrapper was from him emptying his pockets in the car

I have brought up that woman numerous times he’s just like mmm idk idk 🤷‍♂️

He obliged to go to couples counseling which we’ve been in for 5 years

Thing is these things bother me not as much as they used to but there are days I dwell on it feeling like he lied to me feeling like I was never told the truth wishing I could back and do more say more

Sometimes it keeps me up at night

I rethink everything and over analyze the past on these days and I’ll be like hmm he did that in 2017 so maybe 🤔

I get so mad then sad and upset over it solely because I feel like he is a fucking liar can’t bring it up he gets so MAD

even back then when I tried to talk about him on sites the wrapper the woman on the porch he blows up and starts yelling and screaming at me for hours and saying things like

If you think I’m a bad person why’re you with me???!!!!

If that’s what you think….

I NEVER CHEATED!!!!!

I’d say this affects me 1-4 times a year

I still look for that woman in faces to this day I wanna confront her I still remember her face exactly we were face to face when I scared her shitless and she took off running

It’s been 6 years will this ever go away?????????