Depressed …. Barely breathing..💔

So the father of my banies left me for little girls. Just cuz i didnt do my makeup got fat. And not doing my hair… and also cuz he thinks im lazy which i aint i have a job always up on my feet… also thinks i cant cook lol which i can just not to cheaters. And clean which my apartment is spotless clean even tho i have toddlers… i just feel so down lately… ina weird funk dont wanna do anything just go to work come back and sleep . But also i gotta take care of my babies so i dont have time for sleep.. im just in shock he left us. doesnt want nothing to do with the kids either. I feel insecure very😰💔.. feel like now nobody is going to want to be with a single mom of 2. (Even tho i wont be finding anyone in life for like 10 years from now)… but still they wont want a single mom …. I feel let down heart broken that someone would do this me and the kids especially.. but deep down i feel happy by myself with my kids because i dont have to listen to bitching which he used to do to me and he would put me down alot. Thank god i am so over the toxic relationship…. But i am hurt because i feel embarrassed i am a single mom. ….