How do I look?

I want honest feedback on how do I look?

All my life I have been overweight and the society has made me feel awful about it. Lately I have been feeling very under confident about myself.

I know it’s a low point that I am asking strangers here to tell me if I look ok? But idk what else to do. I have never had any man been interested in me (apart from my current bf) I have never had any other man look at me or acknowledge me as a woman. In my country we have arranged marriage system and I’ve faced a lot of rejections solely coz of my weight and my height (I’m 5ft). Infact some women have even insulted me and told me than men will not prefer a fat wife like me if I want a good guy I should lose weight. My education, my personality, my beliefs, none of it matters to anyone.

P. S. I’ve tried losing weight many times but I always end up gaining it back again. So please don’t bother telling me that I should lose weight if it’s affecting me so much.