My life has been one bad choice after another that has led me to where I am today. I am where I am because I made stupid decisions and I can only blame myself. This is my story in a nutshell...... abused and raped in my teens, ran away from home, got in with the wrong crowd, got addicted to drugs and alchohol, then came the rape, abuse and beating. I've done it all and been through it all, and by the grace of God I'm still alive. Yes I could have sought help at any time but the deeper you get the harder it gets to seek help. I was young, stubborn, stupid and scared. Who's going to believe a child I was told, then I was told who's going to believe a alchoholic, who's going to believe a thief and finally, who's going to believe a whore? As I've said, at any time I could gave gotten help but I always thought that nobody would believe me. Now I'm working on bettering my situation but so scared of failure.