The thing I hate about being a nurse is having to deal with disrespectful doctors. This doctor is honestly a jerk. He's said some gross sexist stuff in the past. Example of one thing he said "A male nurse is just a man who couldn't cut it as a doctor, a female doctor is a lucky woman who got the spot of a man who became a doctor." Stuff like that. I hate it. They've just never fired him. I hate working with him.

We had to do a prostate exam on a man yesterday and they left a note saying he as sexual assault trauma and anxiety about the exam. They really should have scheduled him with one of the other doctors because this doctor's bedside manner is terrible. When he came back his wife was with him and she was one of those wives who answers all the questions that we are asking her husband. Yes, it's very annoying when a spouse or parent or whoever is answering the questions that we are asking the patient but I could tell she wasn't just being an overbearing wife. She was genuinely trying to help. Instead of just telling her something professional like "Hey we really need to hear answers from him." He went straight to trying to kick her out and talking down to her asking if she married a child or an adult and he hopes she married an adult because if she married a child he has some phone calls to make. And told her to be quiet. I mouthed I'm sorry.

Then he kept kind of shouting at the patient to speak up when he was asking questions again. Then he started making really in my opinion, gross jokes. Saying how it won't take long because he is known for his skinny and slippery fingers. I feel like these aren't things you say to anyone. Especially people who have in their notes they are scared to be here because of sexual assault. He kept making jokes like this and this guy looked so uncomfortable and scared. The doctor had to step out for a moment and I stepped out too and told him that I don't think our patient appreciates his jokes and he told me to stay in a nurses place and when I go back to school and become a doctor he will value my opinion.

I kept on a straight face and cried after that appointment in the bathroom when I was alone. I try my best to advocate for my patients. The most I could do was after the appointment, I saw the guy looked super upset and so did his wife and told them if they wanted to make a report they would be in their right because how he acted was not correct. My husband has been trying to convince me to quit my job for a while because they won't fire not even crap doctors but the crap nurses. But I love my job so much. I love my patients. I love helping people. But I hate the environment. I'm crying at this job constantly. Part of me knows I can do better elsewhere. Part of me wants to stick it out.