Feeling deflated DPO 9 :(

Feeling a bit disheartened today. Month 3 of ttc, im currrently 9DPO, been having light cramps since about.7DPO. My.breasts have been tender so.thought what the hell il try a test.. i know im.early and was negative obviously, but i feel like im so afraid.to test again in a few days as feel like it will stil be negative. I dont know why but really felt like this was my month. This is trying for baby #2. My first pregnancy i got first try.