HIya please bare with as it’s a long one…

so I’ve always thought something was a bit off with me as I’ve struggled since I can remember. As a child I was very anxious I couldn’t dance at parties, wouldn’t ever sing in class or assembly just mouth the words, ect ect mainly in fear and anxiety. I’ve grown up to be the same, very anxious and wary of what people think of me. I’m much better with dealing with anxiety now but I still have my struggles,

I’ve always found it difficult to sit still or focus on one thing at a time like I’ll twiddle my thumbs or tap my foot, I do it so much I don’t notice half the time. At school I used to push my thumb in my hand so I could focus on that to sit still as I couldn’t normally and felt like people were watching me.

I have always struggled with my hearing which is become a real issue now, I have had a hearing test and been told my hearing is fine although I find it so hard to hear what people are saying, I have found if thefe is background noise or other things going on I can’t hear past it very well at all and this has become so fustrating, due to working in education this seems similar to auditory processing disorder.

I can’t focus on one thing at a time and have an awful memory. Like if I’m tiding my room i will start in once place, find something that goes in a different part of my room and then I’m tiding there and then it’s a spiral of doing this and my room isn’t tidy and I’m back to the start. I will forget everything even if it was told to me 20 mins ago. Like if I’m using an iPad at work to log something but have to do something a bit more urgent and then come back to the iPad, I will forget I was even doing anything on the iPad, I do remember later on in the day sometimes but I find it so frustrating.

Because of all the above (and I’ve prob missed parts out) I want to address it at my doctors but I’m scared I won’t be taken seriously or that it’s normal or something.

I guess I need some advice? I’ve looked online for different things but has been useless really.

Hoping someone here can help I guess or understand?

Thanks, Emily