I’m 28 years old and I’m 5’3.5 tall and my weight fluctuates between 184 to 189 lbs. I donated blood earlier this year and they told me my cholesterol level was 198. I know 200 is high and I haven’t changed my eating habits. In fact, it may be worse. I always think if I don’t get pregnant with my second child now or in two years, I’m never gonna be able to have one. I had ovulation problems 4-5 years before my first baby and had to take Clomid to ovulate and I stopped taking it and then, fast forward, not even a year later, I become pregnant. But I always feel like the end is near for me if I don’t change my eating habits and lifestyle. Is this normal? And if I keep worrying, is it more likely to happen? Or is that just superstition. I hate feeling like this and want to live a long life for the sake my boyfriend and daughter. Oh and btw, I get chest pains every once in awhile but it only lasts for a couple of seconds. I really don’t want to be put on medication since I’m already on a haldol shot once a month at 100 mg for schizophrenia. I also have bipolar disorder and it’s not treated and was considering asking the Dr. to put me back on something since late 2021, but I’m not sure if it will help because I didn’t notice anything different before. Maybe a different medication might work? I let myself go and feel very bad about my physical appearance and cognitive thinking. I feel like I constantly think of stuff that have no weight or value and it’s like I don’t have an opinion on a lot of things and I should. My Dr. said losing focus is part of my illness, but he can’t put me on anything to help me focus or concentrate because it counteracts with the shot. I feel so lost. It’s like sometimes I’m worried about how much longer I got to live and then other times, it’s like if I do end up passing away, then, I’ll stop thinking about stupid stuff. -.- smh