I AM SO EXHAUSTED

I AM SO EXHAUSTED, losing baby after baby and seeing negative pregnancy tests one after another. I don’t know what the hell I done in a past life to deserve this but in this life I think I’m a pretty decent woman. I help anyone in need I come across, I love my step children as if they are my own but I’m just dad’s wife to them! I can’t afford IVF and even if I could I only have a 19% chance it’ll work 😕 if I was blessed with a baby, I’d be the best mum I could possibly be. I’d make sure my baby had everything I never had when I was little but I raise it right to be humble and respectful of what it has! I’m not religious but if there is a god, PLEASE, PLEASE just listen to me now!? I’m broken and lost knowing I can’t have a baby of my own! It’s killing me 😖