Upsetting

Thinking back on my baby shower. How everything turned into drama… not many people showed up and this is my first baby…. It was all about my sister that day I felt like. I didn’t get much stuff at my baby shower. It just hurts me deeply that it was supposed to be the best day but it didn’t. My family issues are seriously just messed up. I’m excited to have my baby girl me and my fiance both but I feel like nobody cared. And it still hurts it hurts that I didn’t get the baby shower I wanted or dreamed of. I felt like besides me and my fiance and my 2 friends actually cared instead of my family…. It was honestly the most depressing day I have ever had. I just wanted it over with. Just wanted to crawl under a blanket that day and just hide. I cried so much but nobody but my fiance was there to comfort me. Thinking about how I didn’t get a happy baby shower just broke me. It was going good you know my nieces was there. But when everyone was outside it turned into crap. Not to mention I had my baby shower at a church….

I just wanted a great day that day but it didn’t happen..