I was 8w, baby looked to be measuring 7w

Went to Er on 23/12 for spotting was told everything looked good. Saw baby’s heart flickering but was unable to hear.

I had told my parents I was pregnant as I had asked them to take me to the hospital. On 25th I miscarried. Went to Er and they told me there is nothing they can do and sent me home. Few hours later I miscarried and saw my baby.

My biggest thing is this is the second time of informing my parents and straight away miscarrying. I’m legitimately petrified of telling them because I feel like it’s because of their negative emotions towards me having a baby with my husband and that they are giving me evil eye.

My husband is overseas and is crushed. We won’t be able to try again until he returns in march. But we have been trying for 2 years. I’m devastated.

Any advice? What am I doing wrong? Why do I keep losing my babies?