Need some positive vibes 🙏🏻

Not sure why I am writing it. May be need to vent. If you don’t feel like reading a sad story on the first day of this year, I request you to leave. Always dreamt about having a family of 4/5. When we first planned about starting a family, had back to back miscarriages. After trying for 9 months when I was about to give up and decided to see fertility specialist, Jan1 2020 decided to take a home pregnancy test for no reason and it was positive again. This time my baby decided to stick and finally became parent of a beautiful baby boy at age 33.

We thought to not try for another child at least for 3 years. Now again at my age 36 as I am trying for my 2nd child, no luck. Not even after trying for 8/9 months. I am seeing fertility specialist and treatment will be started from next month. I really had high hopes and thought may be like last time I will take a test today and who knows, may be it will be positive. This was my last month trying naturally. But it came back negative (used First response). I will start my period on 4th Jan.

After doing so many investigations, they found nothing wrong. So I don’t feel very positive about IUI. For some reason I feel nothing will work for me. I am thankful to god for making me a mother of my baby boy. But I really wanted a sibling for him.

If you kindly can pray for me, have positive thoughts or any positive story to share (natural or IUI in similar situation) please share and make my day brighter.

Thanks ❤️