So I guess I’m just venting. I work in HR and was pregnant. As my pregnancy ran it course, I began to feel more and more exhausted, irritable, hungry etc all the things that naturally come with pregnancy. These feelings caused me to mess up at work and caused my boss to want to put me on an improvement plan and told me that information on my last day before leaving for maternity leave! She said when I got back she wanted me to sign something and that it wasn’t bad (yea right).

No one wants that! I cried because I know that it’s bout my work ethic and im JUST pregnant!

So ofcourse I tried to enjoy my baby but anxious the whole time about my job smh. Sickening.

So when I returned the plan was on hold because we were focusing on more important goals. Then one day out of the blue, she was let go for other reasons, so in thought I was in the clear….

My coworker became my boss. Now I’m back in the office, i vowed to myself I would come back strong because I looked it at like whew I get a second chance.

I came back on fire then started missing deadlines and getting overwhelmed again because of my Baby! But this time the baby is actually here! So it’s creating the same shit. I’m sleep deprived, anxious etc boyfriend rarely helps me with his kids!!!!! So Now the co worker- turned -boss wants me on the plan because she sees the same patterns!! I can’t win!

This is not me!! I’m just overwhelmed but I need my job! It’s a good job! I’m so frustrated anxious and sad.

I’m doing it all alone and I can’t use home as an excuse all the time. I feel like I’m drowning😩😩😩