Y’all I’m sorry i wanna rant ab this subject so bad but i don’t wanna necessarily tell people i know so. This past weekend my friend group all went out of town for NYE. We got a nice Airbnb & all had fun drinking & smoking. Well one of the boys, I’m not really friends with fr but he has been trying to fuck/fwm for a few years now, & while i wasn’t opposed to the idea, i always curved him bc i didn’t know him fr. Well this weekend was the first time he & i were able to kick it & talk & get to know each other. & he started applying pressure all day, & i start doing the same bc I’m starting to feel him a little, when the night came & we started drinking & smoking, & then everyone else had called it a night we started getting touchy feely, but i stopped & decided i wasn’t gonna have sex with him. & he respected that & we called it a night. But the next day we’re doing the same, getting fucked up & just having fun. Again he’s been, respectfully, applying pressure all day & idk i liked that he was respectful with it (the bars’ low as hell i know🤦🏾‍♀️) bc other guys I’ve been with would’ve been mad or pressured me into having sex after i said no. So i decided to say why tf not & after we had a few drinks & we shared a blunt we go to my room & do the do, & lemme just say this dude was crazzzyyyy in bed. Like I’m used to doing freaky shit but with my BF. He caught me off guard so many times bc like you’re doing this the first link?? At first i was like “wtf is this. wtf am i doing” but after i got out my head a little i enjoyed tf out of it. Like i had been on bc with my last 2 relationships & started to lose my sex drive & struggled getting wet. Well i got off the pill ab 2 months ago & my body is starting to go back to “normal” & last night i had no issue getting wet. It used to make me so self conscious that i couldn’t but i didn’t feel that last night. Idk it was just freeing having good sex without any strings attached. Plus he was just like a really cool dude. Like i don’t say that often or ever. Bc he was so down to earth & just genuinely seemed like a nice person. Like i was having so much fun just smoking & talking to him the good sex was just a plus.