Ok this is an incident I placed far back in my head and acted like it never happened. I had a boyfriend he was extremely sexual. Me not so much I think now is because he never took my needs in to consideration. I would say stop he would t I would say that Hurts he wouldn’t stop. I can remember just laying there crying if pain num to every thing till he finished. He would wear condoms and he would take them off without my consent . I could of gotten pregnant if I would have caught him multiple times that I lost count. He would make me feel so bad for not wanting to have sex but I didn’t because I couldn’t enjoy it cause it would hurt me. Once I was sleeping he stared putting his fingers in my Anus I know TMI I said please stop he wouldn’t stop I was a little tipsy so I feel asleep hard till I woke up and he still was doing the same thing I said please stop I do t like that. I turn around to avoid it and fall back asleep he the stared rubbing my vagina which I said stop plz . He did not I turn around and a few minutes later he lifts my dress and pushes me close to him I’m thinking he wants to cuddle no he stuck his penis in my anus it was so horrific and painful. It was so degrading not only did he do that but wouldn’t let me go till I was criying in pain . Ever since that day I automatically think that all I am to guys is sex . I cared so much for this person and took stuff like this multiple times and now I have a horrible idea of sex , I can’t enjoy it it scares me that someone will bring me pain , or they just want me for sex sorry for the rant but I just had to tell someone. Now I see that I was sexually assaulted and that is so scary to even admit to.