It’s been weighing heavy on my heart, but I want to break up with my friend group. They never made me feel special or happy when something great happened in my life. After I while I started to feel like they only have me around to fill up space or to make the cost cheaper by inviting me. Every time we go out guys always buy us drinks because they want to talk to me & I just go with it because free drinks. In 2021 I had a birthday party at home, I decorated my space really nice & told everyone to come dressed so we could take pictures (Mind you my birthday is in January & it’s usually way too cold to go out. So, to make it convenient I hosted it at my place which has a beautiful view of the city, very spacious, etc) as my guest was coming in, everyone I invited dressed up besides the girls in my friend group. Can’t lie, but this bummed me out a little bit that they didn’t get dressed or bring a birthday gift. What made it worse was when I left to go pick up the food they apparently told one of my other friends “Wow, I’m surprised you didn’t catch an STD yet”… You can imagine how disgusted I was when I found out. That’s when I found out the girls in the group chat were screwing everyone in the city and spreading herpes. Omg

I confronted them about it & hadn’t spoken to them for months

My friend let’s call him Michael, invited us all over to his place to watch the Bucks game. ( he was unaware of what happened between us) I was a bit awkward at first, but the girls apologized for their behavior and said they still wanted to be friends and hang out. I accepted the apology and we became friends again.

2022 it’s my birthday again and we were supposed to go out, but I got Covid. Instead of being like oh we can go out when you feel better guess what they did? They created a group chat with a bunch of people I don’t know actively making plans for their birthdays. This hurt my feelings. I understand them wanting to plan for their birthdays, but their birthdays are 6-9 months away… I feel like they could have maybe waited a week after my birthday AT LEAST to start making plans. But no… it was important that they make their birthdays important on my day.

After that, I only spent time with 3 out of the 6 girls because they had nothing to do with it & still celebrated my birthday with me.

In 2023 I was still friends with the 3 girls, but then one of them started to act weird when I got a promotion, started to lose weight, & dating again after an abusive relationship. I thought she would be happy for me. Nope. During our class reunion, she didn’t even want to take pictures with me. I cried in the bathroom & just ignored her for the rest of the night.

Now I’m down to 2 friends.

My birthday is in 3 days… reminded the girls & here goes one of them talking about how she’s having her birthday in Greece. Mind you her birthday is in October. Great way to p*ss me off.

To say the least, they didn’t receive an invite this year and I will be spending time with my family instead. It’s a bittersweet feeling to lose friends, but were they ever really my friends?