I’m not sure I want to do this anymore. I’m so exhausted in every way possible, it doesn’t help that I haven’t been sleeping. I don’t know if I just don’t want to be a mom anymore or if I just don’t want to take care of my child the way my bf wants me to, and pretty much by myself. I guess I realize that I’m not playing with or paying attention to my child enough but it’s something that I’m really struggling with. It’s like trying to pay attention to him doesn’t keep my brain active enough or something. I’m tired of being told I’m doing enough when I do literally everything else for our son (diaper changes, baths, bed/nap, feeding). I don’t know what to do. Like I feel bad for not paying attention to him and I feel like a bad mom for it but I also feel like I’m doing everything I can. Part of me wants to walk away and tell him to deal with it but I also don’t think I can walk away from my son like that.