I am currently 13 weeks pregnant with my third child and going through a bad breakup. The man I once loved, is not the same man. I don’t trust him anymore, he’s had so many broken promises, won’t go to counseling or church with me, will give me a hard time watching his own children. I did not expect to have another child with this man only for him to leave me high and dry. He plays me out to be the bad guy when I’ve done so much to prove my love for him. This is our second child together and we both have a child from a previous relationship but he chose to leave that relationship while I had to leave because I was abused and cheated on. I was single for a long time before he came into my life and I was at my highest confidence and self esteem. I had so much support from family and friends and when we got together, I lost a lot of that because they didn’t like the way he treated me but I always excused his behavior with him being upset, with him having a bad childhood, with him growing up in a broken abusive home, with him being depressed about his first child and not seeing her all the time. I blamed me for making him so angry and pushing his buttons. When all I wanted was questions answered and me being supportive and him not being alone in his thoughts. Now he wants to be alone so he can be a “better” man for his kids. So he can “fix” himself. I don’t believe anything he says because he hasn’t tried in our relationship or now after and it’s been rocky for 2 months. I finally decided to throw his stuff out yesterday and tell him enough is enough. The inconsistency is enough. I need to rely on you and trust you and I can’t. I admitted my faults and took accountability for my actions but he never will. He blamed the going back on nicotine on me and blamed me for our broken family to our kids. Am I wrong for still asking God to help him? I feel so weak and all the time and tears I cried and financially in debt wasn’t even worth it. I’m suffering alone now and have to be strong for my babies. 😞