Hi. I’ll keep this short for now but really just need some kind words and encouragement.

My husband had abused anabolic steroids since high school, and at 25 switched to “prescribed” testosterone replacement therapy at 200mg per week. Either way, it’s well known that testosterone replacement is bad for fertility

We’ve struggled to get pregnant for 5 years, 2 failed <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> transfers and 3 chemical miscarriages. They’ve done every possible test on me and I pass with flying colors. No endo, PCOS, fibroids, genetic issues AND I have confirmed ovulation. Despite all this, my husband still refuses to stop TRT, gaslights me, avoids doing the DNA fragmentation test.

After everything I have gone through to have a family with him, this is all such a slap in the face. He promised me he’d quit when we got married, lied about it for 3 years until I found it in the bathroom.. and that’s when he switched to prescribed testosterone. Anyway, he’s completely addicted and idk how much more I can take. I don’t want to leave him, but it feels like he’s robbing me of a having a family for completely selfish reasons.