My punctuation will not be good as inwas typing on my phone nonstop ok here it goes

I keep seeing articles about miscarriage. And miscarriage is everywhere I know but every tim he I watch it happen ṭo them it keeps reminding me that I felt alone like it was my fault for not taking cared of myself. Don't know if it was cause my son Jumped into my hands or it was not meant to be . I do know that I wasn't in a good spot in my relationship. Doubts and mistrust was getting in the way. Feeling emotionally abused with

Being unfaithful just brought me down the stress of fighting pointing fingers it was bad i known my kids felt the bad energy. And having the miscarriage brought into a deep depression and noone was there Noone has been there for me emotionally husband didng seem to care and parents were out of the country..there are times I beat myself so much cause I know it was my fault orAnd it wasn't. I keep crying of guilt cause what if I could of saved that pregnancy what if questions keep coming in. And I have no answers. That baby has no future that baby has no name that baby would have been 11 months in November. this sadness is killing but u can't show it cause ITS Gone Noone is going to feel the loneliness sadness guilt and the fear of getting pregnant AGAIN. I know God has a plan but sometimes God's plans hurt.

I pray for every woman that has gone through this alone without support I pray they are guided by God like I would of liked to believe in him last year. I wish that my little angel knows that HE OR SHE was loved and will be missed by mommy. 3 weeks into the pregnancy and hopes and dreams were destroyed

April 17 2022

I hate this feeling 😞 I HATE THAT I FEEL SAD

IHATE THAT I FEEL ALONE I HATE