I don’t know how to feel. I’m sad, I’m hurting, I’m confused. Trying hard not to blame myself but it just hurts. This is my first time experiencing miscarriages back to back. My boyfriend has been very supportive this whole time. He is my ray of sunshine through the pain and I’m so grateful to have him around. My heart is pretty heavy and my head is full of questions that we won’t get answers to. Everything happens for a reason and Im going to hold onto hope that when the time is right we will have a beautiful healthy little baby.