Am I out? Again...

I am 11-12 dpo. Had a bunch of def very faint pos yesterday on cheap amazon dip sticks. Decided this morning to take a clearblue pink dye. Came up faint but i can def see. Now I tested again with the dip sticks and its lighter or not really there.

I guess my question is am i out this month? Should I have a BFP by now?

My cycles are 31-33 days and I O around day 19-20

Feeling very disheartened right now. I was so happy yesterday and then this morning. Now big disappointment kicked in

Yesterday's dip sticks

Todays morning clearblue

Todays mid day test