I just wanted to come up here & vent . I dont have a lot of people to talk to and i been feeling really down lately. I just got out of a toxic/abusive relationship with my ex & i found out i was pregnant after breaking up . I got an abortion today & it is killing me inside ... i had an abortion before & my first time was extremely traumatic for me . I ended up having to get it at almost 10 weeks & i promised myself id never do it again. Although I know it wasnt the best idea to have another child in my current situation, it still feels so wrong . I wish I was in a position to keep it . I feel like god put life inside me for a reason and I keep taking it for granted. Theres women out there who cant have children. I ended up quitting my job because of the domestic violence I was dealing with my ex and between that and the abortion i just feel so overwhelmed & unmotivated.