kinda lost

not sure where to start. just kinda want to vent. i’m getting married on march 23rd. i don’t have any close friends besides my best friend of 16 years who lives 5 states away. i got engaged dec 2022, so it’s been well over a year with the knowledge of the wedding. i get a text yesterday (day of my bridal shower) that she said she can’t make it to the wedding because she can’t afford it.

i feel so mad and hurt with her. my fiancé and i chose not to do bridal party & groomsmen, so she had no expenses of that form to worry about. i offered to pay for her hotel room both nights, and i would pick her up and take her back to the airport. i was trying to offer any and everything i could so that my best friend could be there. and she had over a year to save to ensure to be here. and i can help but think like what if i did have a bridal party? she would have been my maid of honor. would she have made it a priority to come or would she have backed out still?

i understand completely about money problems. i’m not faulting her for that, but i feel like it could have been prepped for better.

i’m just hurt more about it, and don’t feel like she cares.

if you got this far, thanks for listening to my rant.