Has being a single mother traumatized you ?

I’m a single mother and I am traumatized by the thought of having other children. A apart of me is sad because my child won’t have siblings by me but another part of me is relieved. I’ve been a mother for 4 years now and it’s been hell with not having support from the father or my family. I’ve lost several jobs and it’s really been hard for me and I’ve been truly sad for the last 4 years but I try to show up every day and be there for my child the best way I can.