I am a believer and I take my relationship with God seriously. The last three years of my marriage have been hell. Got a blessing though- a baby girl who lights up my life. She is my miracle baby and I will be forever grateful to God for her. My husband of 6 years on the other hand had and still has a full blown relationship with another woman in overseas (where he travels 2-3 times a year) and now they have a baby girl a few months younger than mine. I am hurt and hurt and hurt! I still have feelings for him but I don’t think I love him anymore. I hate him for how he has treated me and disrespected our union. I can imagine forgiving him just as God forgives us but I also feel a lot of pain and this makes it difficult to think about forgiveness. I know I said for better for worse but I didn’t think that he would bring the worse to me and at this point I’m ready to dissolve the marriage.

I just need some encouragement that it will get better.