I think my pregnancy hormones are kicking in 💔

I think/hope it’s just my pregnancy hormones that are making me sad lately. I’ve been close to crying seeing other friends/family of mine announce they are pregnant as well, but seeing so many people that I thought were my friends or cared about me or would at least be happy for me comment and like the other friends announcements, but not even liking mine has really hurt me. Not because I want the attention, but because it’s made me think/realize how many people don’t care about me at all. People that I’ve cared about for years or considered a good friend. It’s just made me realize how much I love and care about people that don’t feel the same for me. It’s made me feel awfully lonely in the world.

My relationship is a polyamorous one, and this baby is my boyfriends and not my husband’s. My husband is fine with it and happy and so is his mom and my boyfriend and his family are happy too. My family is happy, but are Mormon and having a hard time with it. Most people just tell me that it’s gonna cause my husband to leave me and all the problems this will bring me. It’s been hard on my mental health to constantly hear it when I just want to be happy. My husband says he’s never going anywhere no matter what, but hearing he will leave from everyone all the time, makes me worry and feel guilty. I was on birth control when this happened too.

I just want to curl up in bed and never leave and cry myself to sleep lately.