A little over 5 months ago my (then) 13 month old daughter had covid, her first symptom was a febrile seizure. One minute she was sitting down in front of me and then suddenly her eyes went completely blank and she fell back and started convulsing and throwing up. After the seizure stopped she went completely unresponsive for several minutes. It was the worst thing I have ever seen in my entire life. I didn’t even know febrile seizures were a thing at that time so I had absolutely no idea what was going on. I thought my baby was gone. We called 911 of course and at the hospital we were given the whole spiel on febrile seizures. She has not had one since. My problem is that I am completely and utterly traumatized. I live every single day in fear of that happening again. I avoid doing anything that will raise her body temperature, I check her temperature multiple times a night, I am an anxious mess at the slightest sign of her being sick. I have this horrible dread constantly. There has not been a day since the seizure I haven’t thought about it. i can not describe how horrifying that was to see and I just can not get it out of my head. I am currently in therapy trying to work through this but I just can’t seem to make a break through. I just needed to rant to someone as i feel like I’ve bothered everyone in my life with it so much at this point. Any shared experiences or advice welcomed and appreciated!