4 years ago I miscarried and had been diagnosed with PCOS, I battled all the feelings I could about motherhood and came to face with the fact I will have a harder time and I became content with it. Fast forward to this month I’ve been sleepy as hell, cramping with no blood, my nipples have doubled in size and lord soon as I stand and my breast just sit on there own it feels like cinder blocks are just hanging from them..so I take a test this morning and sure enough what does it say? I’m just in such disbelief, and what a worse time, so much to think about and so so much to decide😖 absolutely the worst possible time for me but I feel like shit if I don’t take this gift then what? what if this is my only shot? What if when the time is “right”, i have difficulty conceiving..I also feel like what if it goes like before? What if I spend time, money, energy just to be let down by my body again? So many fears, so many worries, I honestly am just lost for words.

I posted anonymously because I understand everyone has different outlooks on pro-life and pro-choice, I did not want to make this a negative post just looking for some voices of reason from maybe anyone who’s been in my shoes. That kind of loss sticks to you and makes you afraid to face it again.