42 and pregnant with #3

(3/17/24) Hi there! I’m not 100% sure why I’m posting - I have read through so many Glow posts overt the years and it’s been really inspiring, informative, sometimes kinda sad. But mostly it’s been incredibly supportive. This pool of women have literally been through it all. Last week I found out I’m pregnant again - we had a missed miscarriage almost exactly a year ago (baby didn’t progress past 8 weeks and no heartbeat). After having 2 very healthy pregnancies in my late 30’s and never having had a loss, I was kinda shocked (even if not totally surprised). Like oh yeah, “you’re 41 now girl!” I started taking a prenatal vitamin with a Coq10 boost for egg support, and gave it one more year to keep trying. Low a behold, almost exactly 1 year later here we are at 5 wks 4 days. I’m refusing to let myself believe it’s real until we hear a heartbeat. The OBs here don’t see you until 11-12 weeks which is just wild to me. Because of my previous miscarriage they agreed to check my HCG levels (raising “appropriately”) and I will go for an ultrasound in 10 days (gulp). I know I’m not alone in the anxiety that comes from this first scan. I can’t stop thinking about it, like looking for signs of miscarriage, taking pregnancy tests every day to see if the line is getting darker 😅 Just sharing my story because I know in this group it can be tough sledding and it’s really helpful to hear everyone’s different experiences positive or otherwise!