Thinking about things

I moved to a city that had zero diversity when I was a teenager and it was hard growing up the stares whispers all because I was different than what they had known. It was hard because I was from a city where it's diverse and people are friendly excepting and I had to leave behind my friends and try to make new friends the struggle is real when you are only ethnicity in a city that has one Ethnicity. It's difficult no matter if you are Caucasian going to an all African American school, if you are Asian, African American, Latino going to a Caucasian city, town school where you are the Minority ethnicity in the population dealing with the stereotype and if they believe what the TV News says about certain Ethnicities because they have never met anyone outside of there skin color and seeing someone different it's different reactions staring or ostracize not accepting them shunning them or discriminatory behavior.

I dealt with it by blaming myself I thought they are staring at me because looks or how I'm dressed and I put myself down I was always freshly groomed and well dressed but I wanted to have an answer on why I didn't fit in why I wasn't making friends I didn't want to say racism and feel hurt because it did hurt my self esteem went to the ground and where in my old city that people would socialize with me I had friends I was outgoing this new city I became an introvert and it was hard because there were groups of friends and I wanted to belong I tried but it was difficult trying to make friends fit in.

I felt different than everyone else

How do I heal from this? How do I let the pain go there's a lot to write about and what affected me I wanted to write the post without bias to the reader and for them to place themselves in a city that you are the only one there the only ethnicity like you arrive to a city without color all grey and you are as vibrant as a rainbow 🌈 and you don't have a place to belong how would you heal from being away from the light for so long being away from paradise like a place that has diversity