So ive had a crush on my best friends brother since December and knew straight away that i was wrong for it so i tried to not think about it and get rid of it…. It didn’t work. I started noticing when he had got his hair done and wanted to compliment him but knew it was best to keep my mouth shut. I basically avoided all conversation with him and focused on my best friend and her parents in conversation instead. However somehow its become a ritual to hug every single family member of my best friends family when i arrive and leave the house. Which is nice cause i see them as family. But there were times were i had to talk to him and this is where it all began to get interesting …? We went to watch my best friends football match sometime in December and obviously we are stood side by side with his dad watching my best friend play. We decide that the 3 of us (him, his dad and me) should go inside for a bit as it was cold outside. He turns to me and says he wants a drink so i bluntly say that he should just get one. He then starts having a conversation with his dad about the dog and the doggy cam in the living room. They start laughing about how they should have one in every room. But then he turns to me and says “Not my room though. My rooms private” You can imagine my face 🤨😯😳

I tried to tell myself that i just have a dirty mind and he meant nothing by it. I then looked at his dad to see if he thought what i did but he looked clueless. So i just brushed it off. But then as we were walking back to the car he asked me if i was cold. I told him that my legs were a little cold. He then commented on how thin and tight my leggings were as he was walking behind me. There was an awkward pause and i played it off by saying my thick ones were in the wash 😀

The next day at uni i asked my friends if he meant it in a flirty way or if it was just banter. They all told me to just leave it alone. So i did but i couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Do you think it was flirting or banter?

Next thing you know im on a night out with my uni friends having a good time and he’s telling me to stay safe and let him know when i get home, etc. Which i didn’t mind i just saw it as him being caring. He would also call me cutie bum when i let hime know i got home. But that night we were also chatting about the gym as i had planned to join soon. But then all the sudden i get a lovely picture of his abs…

Too many drinks in im stood there phone in hand starring at this picture thinking many many many thoughts 💭😅 So i try and reply normally by saying great work! 😀 Meanwhile i was shouting Daddy in front of my uni friends and a group of lads. Im pretty sure i scared them off 😂. I tried to brush it off but i can be a little too honest when drunk so i told him that i wasn’t sober enough to have a conversation. In the morning i went to work hungover as you do and saw he had text me. So i opened it and it said “ i see you’ve saved that picture 👀. Like what you see?” I was shitting myself not only was i obvious about it last night but i had saved the picture!!! So again i tried to brush it off my saying i saved it by accident and told him to forget the whole conversation.

His response:

Next thing you know im acting awkward as fuck around him not even making eye contact. It gets to February time and me and my best friend go out for another friends 20th birthday. Long story short i forgot my keys so i couldn’t go home. Sooo…. I ended up on my best friends sofa. Like you do… In the middle of the night someone came down stairs for a drink. Meanwhile im trying to sleep off my growing headache with a tiny blanket in the freezing living-room. I then hear that someone walk into the living room and say “cutie bum”. So i instantly knew it was him. He ended up getting a bigger blanket and covering me with it before going back to bed. Then in the morning everyone is sat having breakfast and me and my best friend are talking about our friends 20th. He then says “Well the truth comes out when your drunk” and i quickly agreed then quickly regretted it as i knew he was hinting at my silent confession from my last night out. 🙈

Weeks go by and i end up joining the gym as i said i would. The gym i join is my local gym which he goes to. Which i tell myself is fine i would just act normal. We ended up bumping into each other at the gym quite a lot and it was nice as it was short conversations about what gym routine we were doing that day. I remember in one conversation he got a bit flustered as he had a bit of fluff in his mouth and i awkwardly stood there waiting for him to sort it out 😂 One day after i left the gym he text me saying i looked good in my green leggings. I knew what he meant by it but innocently played it off by saying how i felt like the grinch wearing all green 🤣

But at this point i was piecing it all together and his latest comment was the most obvious of them all. It was also annoying not knowing if he was flirting or if i was just delulu. So i text him back and said “Are you flirting with me?” It then took him a while to reply back it put a smile on my face that it probably flustered him. He replied “Was it that obvious? Is it okay?” I then replied “It was a little obvious (while it had been really obvious) i dont mind it” Then that night we were flirting and chatting. He told me he was just about to jump on a game with his sister (my best friend) so i told him that i would text him tomorrow. He then replied “No i want to talk to you. You interest and fascinate me.” I then replied “ Interest you fascinate you? You make me sound like a new species 🤣” He ended up confessing that he liked me and had done for a while he then listed all the things he liked about me and i did the same with him. We then cane to the conclusion that nothing could happen without his sister my best friends go ahead. So i ended up telling my best friend and she was shocked obviously and so were the rest of her family but they were lovely and supportive. However they weren’t as shocked as mine when they found out the age difference. They knew he was a nice guy but it ircks my dad a bit as my dad has friends his age…. For reference im 20 and he is 30. My dad is accepting that we are now basically together but that doesn’t stop him from giving him nicknames such as prick, Greg (Meet the Fockers) and something else 🤣

We are both very flirty with each other over text but in person a bit quiet but touchy feely when alone. When we are in front of my best friend and her family we chat but dont go near each other. Well i dont anyway. Once there was a big space on the sofa for me to sit next him and i ended up just sitting at the dinner table with my friend 🙈 I just find it hard to get used to the new dynamic.

Its been 4 weeks. Ive stayed over twice now in his bed not my best friends bed anymore 🙈🤣 And we are both cuddly and we chill and watch netflix. On my second time staying over after him teasing me all week on messages i was a little bit horny. But as i was a virgin and he knew as i had told him. He said that if i wanted something i should make the first move. Now i did not have a clue what this first move was supposed to be. But i knew that if i didn’t do anything i was gonna be very sexually frustrated at work the next morning 🤣 So after building up my courage all night. I climbed on top of him and started kissing him and his neck. Then he put his hand down my pants and told me to take them off. So first i took off my top whilst on top of him and then took off my pants. He then put his hand down my thong and started circling my clit. He then told me to lie on my back. I did as i was told 😅 He then took my thong and threw it on the floor and began circling my clit again with his fingers. He then began to finger me with his other hand and omg 🥵 I was getting there! But he didn’t stop there he then went down on me for a long fucking while which felt so good!! He then came back up took his pants off and stroked his cock against my entrance. But he said he wasn’t ready. So he collapsed at the side of me and continued to play with my clit listening to me breathe and moan. Then he whispered in my ear “Good girl” I was extremely fucking wet 😅 He then told to get on top. I started grinding on him kissing him until he was ready.

His cock slid right in and wasn’t painful like i had expected it to be. So i rid him as he moaned beneath me biting my bra. He was reaching his climax and pushed me off so he could pull out in time 🙈 He then asked me if i was okay snd if it hurt? I told him no and that it was completely fine while trying to get my breath back.

The next time i see him im staying over on my birthday but he wants me to try giving him a blow job. Ive told him he would have to guide me but im so nervous as im literally just winging it 🙈and im pretty sure his parents probably heard us 🥲