This is pretty lengthy.

Guess im just ranting and need some encouragement. This so crazy you think I would be making this up. Smh. I have the worst luck with love.

I’m not letting him know I’m done with him like I usually do, I’m just not going to talk to him anymore. Because when I let him know, he try to make me feel bad, flips it on me & Honestly, I’m over it.

I go through his phone cause I just can’t trust him or shit he says anymore. He’s been lying to me for 5 years, every time I catch him in a lie, he tries to flip it on me and I’m so tired of it. I been trying to work it out. Give it a break and come back but nothing is changing. Still a liar.

The messages are a bit out of order but you’ll understand once you read them. Smh. I’m in just disbelief. Idk why after all these years I’m always so shocked. It’s been the same with him.

Start from the latest break up, December 2023-Feb 2024. I broke up with him because a little before Christmas I was over his house, he got an attitude. I can’t remember for what but it escalated to him not speaking to me the entire time I was there. I woke up there so around 11 am he stopped conversing with me. I asked questions, tried to talk, ignored me. So I stayed there all damn day (now that I look back, I stayed like an idiot. I should’ve left right then after being ignore for an hour) and he literally didn’t talk to me, idk why I took that kind of treatment but I did. At 10:15 ish at night I was packing all my stuff because I had to be to work at 11 and also I wasn’t planning on coming back. When I left out, I didn’t say anything, I left. Got in my car and drove to work, blocked him, he had to have called my phone private over 50 times here’s the picture of my call log.

That’s not even half of it.

When I finally answered he told me “I only have 2 things to say to you” and at the top of his lungs he said “you can die today bitch, I wouldn’t care if you died today, I would kill you if I ca, you broke ass bitch” mind you I’m the one with the job and he’s without one. Anyway.

I know some of y’all are probably done reading by now. Y’all are strict and don’t play. But the reason now for breaking up is because he keeps fuckin lying. He said he hasn’t talked to his ex in about a year or so. Sooooo, why is she commenting on his statuses? lol. not too long ago (2 weeks ago maybe) she commented and I asked him about it. He said “we’re not friends on there, I haven’t talked to her in about a year” yadi yadi yadi, blah blah blah. So I let it go. I’m like okay cool. Whatever. Fast forward to a few days later, I seen that he searched this same ex on his Facebook. Wow. Lmao. I asked him about he said “I was looking in her friends list for a girl that sings.” I can’t prove that of course. So whatever.

NOW Let me note to y’all, that he thought he was slick with this excuse because he raps and sings, he has a studio in his living room that he works out of, so he used that on me, which was a good one if you ask me cause clearly I believed it. Smh. Not sure that my gut believes it though.

Fast forward to last night. A hard gut feeling and this one was deep for me. I knew it was something more and I just couldn’t put my finger on it. So boom!!!! Messages between him and the ex that he hasn’t talked to in about a year or so. This wasn’t even 4 months ago. 😂😂😂 this tickles me so bad. I confronted him and he just flipped it on me. I’m done. lol.

The whole relationship started off of a lie. So again, I’m not surprised. I should’ve just saved the heartbreak a long time ago. First time meeting the man, he lied said he was staying with his granny when he was really staying with a woman and her 1 year old and I let it go. Looked right past it. Then so much more bs has happened over the past 5 years, let it go, looked past it. This is what the fuck I get. This man, was abusing our puppies, cats, saying he didn’t want to be a father figure to my son, calling me out my name the whole 9 and I stayed. Left and came back. Multiple times. I’m done. It’s been so much, This whole bs with this other woman he won’t block, she constantly text him and call him and he says it’s nothing he said she a good friend. Listen. I am done. Smh. Just last night he told me to get the fuck out his house, like. I’m just leaving and being done. I can’t take it anymore.

These are the messages between him and his ex that he hasn’t talked to in about a year, this wasn’t even 4 months ago, liar. Smh. My heart is made of gold. That’s my issue. I forgive and forgive till I can’t forge I’ve anymore.

My friend said this to me cause I told her about this situation. She been with me since I was in 9th grade. We’re 31. She knows about us. I told her I’m sick of feeling bad every time I leave this man. He’ll go on Facebook and bash me! She knows. She’s been witnessing this shit for so long. I’m just tired fr.

With this me “lying” about “talking to el” part. He asked me who was I talking to during our break a few days into us getting back together. I assumed he meant “talking stage” cause why would it matter? Anyway. I said I wasn’t talking to no one, then a few days later, El called my phone while me and my ex (boyfriend at the time) was looking at TikTok’s and he just flipped and assumed I was talking to him during the break cause he called me and now I’m a liar for saying I wasn’t talking to El. I said I talked to him a few times but we weren’t talking like that on that level. Now to this day, he claims that he was asking did I talk to anyone, rather it was just talking as conversations or talking stage and he’s lying cause he never specified.

My friend also said. This was to me basically fearing what he’ll say about me to people.